put your arms up...YAY!

11:07 am - kinda funny.......

Current Mood: amused

10:48 am - Eventfull......

last night was a turning point.




at least i didn't stab anyone in the throat on my way there......lol





work tonight at 4 til about 8.......so you better hit a broke ass girl up and take her out on the town.......

Current Mood: jubilant

11:59 pm - a NEW day

I hate to advocate drugs,
alcohol,
violence
or insanity to anyone,
but they've always worked for me.

Current Mood: good

03:10 pm

If this doesnt touch you, you have no heart.........
~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o

Daniel and Jasmine are sitting alone in the park one night....

Daniel: I guess we are the left overs in this world

Jasmine: I think so... All of my friends have boyfriends and we are only the 2 persons left in this world without any special person in our lives

Daniel: Yup I don't know what to do

Jasmine: I know! We'll play a game

Daniel: What game?

Jasmine: i'll be your girlfriend for 30 days and you will be my boyfriend

Daniel: That's a great plan in fact i don't have anything to do for the following weeks...

DAY 1:

They watch their first movie and they both watched a romantic film

DAY 4:

They went to the beach and had a picnic...Daniel and Jasmine had their quality time together

DAY 12:

Daniel invited Jasmine to a circus and they rode on a Horror House....Jasmine was scared and she touched Daniel's hand, but she touched someone else's hand and they both laughed...

DAY 15:

They saw a fortune teller down the road and they asked for their future advice and the fortune teller said: "My darlings, Please don't waste the time of your life... spend the rest of your time together happily" Then tears flow out from the teller's eyes

DAY 20:

Jasmine invited Daniel to go to the hill and they saw a meteor...Jasmine mumbled something

DAY 28:

while they sat on the bus the bumby road caused Jasmine to give Daniel a kiss by accident

DAY 29:

11:37pm

Jasmine and Daniel sat in the park where they first decided to play this game...

Daniel: I'm tired Jasmine...Do you want something to drink? I'll buy you one.. I'll just go down the road

Jasmine: Apple Juice that's all

Daniel: Wait here for me....

20mins later... a stranger approached Jasmine

Stranger: Are you a friend of Daniel?

Jasmine: Why yes? What happened?

Stranger: A reckless drunken driver ran over Daniel and he is critical in the hospital

11:57pm

The doctor came out of the emergency room and he handed an apple juice and a letter to Jasmine

Doctor: We found this in Daniel's pocket

Jasmine read the letter:

Jasmine, This past few days, i realized you are a really cute girl and i am really falling for you..Your cherished.... you were everything when we played this game..... Before this game would end...I would like you to be my girlfriend for the rest of my life.... I love you Jasmine....

Jasmine crumples the paper and shouted:

"Daniel ! I don't want you to die... I love you...Remember that night when we saw the meteor, I mumbled something... I mumbled that I wish we would be together forever and never end this game. Please don't leave me Daniel.... I love you! You cannot do this to me!"

Then the clock strikes 12

Daniel's heart stop pumping

IT WAS THE 30TH DAY........

*************************************************

Always love your loved ones and show them how you feel before it is too late... You will never know when they will be gone from your embrace... If you were given a time to bestow petals of everlasting compassion and love to your loved ones, today is the day.... Love them while they are still here...

Current Mood: pills make me a spacecadet

12:18 am - recovering.....

today is the first day without my meds









i'll never be who i was......i'll forever be changed.

change is the only constant thing in life.......change is good.

Current Mood: calm

01:52 am - Fuck him, fuck her, fuck the father, fuck the god damn world for that matter b/c I DON'T GIVE A SHIT

it's almost the weekend......what a day from hell......don't want to talk about it b/c my eyes are already swollen shut from my already fallen tears.....







still the pain doesn't stop......the hurting doesn't stop........





i wish i could just disappear



my heart has yet to decide.....he said to call him later, but i almost don't want to......but then again i need closure for my heart to be okay with this bull shit......and really that's all it's been is bullshit

Current Mood: confused among other things...

01:40 pm - ...sadness....

this is one from Jack Johnson, and it's exactly how I feel at the moment....

When your mind is a mess so is mine I can't sleep
because it hurts when i thingk when my thoughts aren't at peace
with the plans that we make and the chances we take
they're not yours they're not mine
there are waves that can break
all the words that we said and the words that we mean
and the words can fall short, can't see the unseen
becuase the world is awake so for sombody's sake
now please close your eyes
woman, please get some sleep

too mush silence can be misleading
you're drifting i can hear it in the way that you're breathing
we don't really need to find reson
because out the same door that it came well it's leaving
it's leaving
leaving like a day that's done and part of a season
resolve is just a concept that's as dead as the leaves
but at least we could sleep, it's all that we need
when we wake we would find, out minds would be free

Current Mood: depressed

12:17 am - ...

yummy ..... split pea soup......(the first thing i've been able to hold down)




i'm not ok.

Current Mood: crappy

12:52 am - ??

i have no idea what to think right now........ i get worried. my nerves are at the end.......what should i do?.......go about life............or not..............life sucks, then you die. i want to know what it's like when you're dead........is there an after life, or do you repeat the same one that you lived before...........well HE be there waiting for me........why won't HE call.........

i havn't sleept since friday when everything happened........why did i make a rash decision?
why won't HE call...........

i havn't eaten in 2 days.............why won't HE call.........

i don't even know how to describe the way i feel. i feel like life was ripped from my entire being

emotions are building up............why won't HE call............

why can't i be a part of HIS life....what is HE keeping me from?.......why does HE have to hurt me so much to where i can't even see out of my eyes anymore.......... my tears are falling so fast and i can't stop them.......HE knows i can't sleep without HIM..........what is wrong with me?

i hope HIS waiting for me.........

Current Mood: indescribable

01:24 am - it's a great day for Chris....

...but not for me......

started off great......ended terrible......




and i'll just leave you with this.........
"If you look inside a girl's heart you'd see how much she really cries, you'll find secrets hidden, best friends, and lies. But what you'll see the most, is how hard it is to stay strong when nothing in her life's right and everything is wrong"

Current Mood: definitly blue....

04:45 pm

02:32 pm - this is freak'n funny

You Are 50% Normal (Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal... Other things you do are downright strange You've got a little of your freak going on But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

01:57 pm - talk about beeing in a mood......

I'll update about the game later ....I'm feeling kinda blue right now.....



THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Rue
2. Woman/Chick
3. Ang (thanks for keepn' it real Jason)

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. AngieRu427
2. MeximeltQueen
3. vixen84936

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My hair
2. yea......that's about it (i'm very criticle towards myself)
3.

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. fat thighs
2. i'm a smoker
3. i get way too attached


THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Polish
2. Swedish
3. Native American

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. the dark
2. loosing people that i care about
3.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. toothbrush/toothpaste
2. control paste
3. my smock

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. tri sigma flips
2. pink skirt
3. my new bathing suit

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists at the moment):

of the moment
1. AFI
2. OAR
3. NOFX
(i like bands that are just letters lol)

overall
1. DMB 4-life
2. Beastie Boys
3. Blink 182

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Beverly Hills
2. ok
3. Switch

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. pass state boards with 100%
2. become 100%drug free
3. reinstate my pimp card

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. to actually be a part of his life
2. to share every thought with him
3. to become his best friend

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. I'm taking a popping class
2. I have never been snow boarding
3. I have 12 piercings

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. smile
2. musscles
3. their shoes

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. whistle
2. pass up a sale
3. drive with my top up on a nice day

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. scrap booking
2. making fun t shirts with witty things written on them
3. playing with makeup

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. be in Chris's bed
2. eat something... i'm starvn' like Marvin
3. get rid of this hangover (fuck keg stands)

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. hair
2. hair
3. did i mention hair?

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. are you kidding me.....i'm stuck downriver forever!
2.
3.

THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. no kids.....but thanks for asking
2.
3.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. the only thing i want to do is live life....that's the point, don't just sit around waiting for it to end....just actually live it.
2.
3.

And 3 people that have to do this:
1. Erin (because I know she will anyway)
2.
3.

Current Mood: blah

04:53 pm - I'm about to call VH1...

....because I'm having the best week ever!!

(I know that was cheesey)
Awesomeness #1: Took state boards. You need at least an 80% to pass, I got 100%. Do you smell that?...WAIT it's just me because I'm the shit.

Awesomeness #2: Went out last night after school to B dubs and talk business with JJ. Needless to say I got a job today

Awesomeness #3: I start tomorrow morning

Awesomeness #4: I'm going to the hair show still. I don't have enough money to stay at a hotel so Steph and I are driving BEFORE the ass crack of dawn to make it down for the 9 am hair show. (Yeah, we're leaving at like 3:30 am tomorrow night.)

Awesomeness #5: Jer's actually letting me cut his hair finally. ::huge smiles::
<now only if I can convince my dad.......) WELL, it's dinner time and I'm starve'n live Marvin. OH and to celebrate I'm going out tonight throwback style....come join :) it'll be fun I promise.

Current Mood: weeeeeeeeeeeee

11:45 am - Sorry Erin I had to take it......

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.......





In a nutshell......that's how last night went. HE makes my heart smile, and now I know, so YOU can stop repeating yourself now(wink wink)


::huge smiles::

Current Mood: good

02:07 pm - it's been a while

Well, believe it or not, I am now a good student, I do my homework, and actually pass ALL my tests.

Needless to say, school has been my life for the past 4 months......with only 12 months left to go.......then........ Miami here I come.

I got fired from Applebees (thank god) I fucking hated that place. I guess 7 no call no shows will do that.

Heather has a job so I really don't see much of her anymore.......that sucks........
Erin fell off the face of the Earth when she became manager...... Barbra lives forever and a day away along with David.......... and all I want is a great night at the bar with my friends.........


I have got tons of homework to do this weekend so I probably won't be doing much (sorry to boar you with my do-nothing-life).......



Yup, that's it......WOW........my life does suck.

Current Mood: blah

12:27 am - Happy Birthday to ME!

WOW my birthday was freaking great. started off at Scorekeepers the went to Ricks's were there was a lot....and I do mean a lot of drinking.


and I mean a lot.....


I'm really glad Brian took a bunch of pictures because my night was mostly black followed by passing out sometime around 5 am .......
(I think.... because that was when I made my last drunk dail of the night)
.....and I actually made it to work the next morning at 10am. Don't ask how because I was still WASTED!!!



Shannon~ the teal worked out great......goes well with diet coke


off to recover

Current Mood: wasted last night!!

02:36 am

i don't know what's more wrong.......the fact that I thought it was cool for a second or that's my sister........ my brother about 30 mins ago. It was fucking great........ Heather wrote it on me with a magic marker........location humor.........




I don't know.........more funny stuff, but I'm too blown out to remember..............shit...............lolhahahahahahah

Current Mood: stoned......

09:32 pm - another day another dollar

I hate my job, but I did make a whole 10 dollars tonight......yea for carside.





yea, I need to move really really soon or I'm going to drive myself crazy with all this driving back and forth to work and school.





As for now, I'm going to take a shower because I have stinky feet (what's new).




leave some words of encourgement please......

Current Mood: yo

11:50 pm - WHAT A.....

.....WEEKEND!

So Easter was a trip and a half. It involved my family going out to eat at this HUGE event put on by Crystal Gardens, and ended in coming back home and sending Tommy (Jessica's hubby) on 6 and i repeat 6 alcohol runs.
Needless to say me, Freda, Jessica, and Cassie went knocking on ALL of your neighbors doors to wish them a Happy Easter while carrying coffee cups full of fixed drinks and wine.





What can I say, binge drinking runs in the family LOL




have a good one y'all

Current Mood: tired