put your arms up...YAY!
Aug. 24th, 2005
11:07 am - kinda funny.......
10:48 am - Eventfull......
last night was a turning point.
at least i didn't stab anyone in the throat on my way there......lol
work tonight at 4 til about 8.......so you better hit a broke ass girl up and take her out on the town.......
Aug. 18th, 2005
11:59 pm - a NEW day
I hate to advocate drugs,
or insanity to anyone,
but they've always worked for me.
Aug. 17th, 2005
If this doesnt touch you, you have no heart.........
Daniel and Jasmine are sitting alone in the park one night....
Daniel: I guess we are the left overs in this world
Jasmine: I think so... All of my friends have boyfriends and we are only the 2 persons left in this world without any special person in our lives
Daniel: Yup I don't know what to do
Jasmine: I know! We'll play a game
Daniel: What game?
Jasmine: i'll be your girlfriend for 30 days and you will be my boyfriend
Daniel: That's a great plan in fact i don't have anything to do for the following weeks...
They watch their first movie and they both watched a romantic film
They went to the beach and had a picnic...Daniel and Jasmine had their quality time together
Daniel invited Jasmine to a circus and they rode on a Horror House....Jasmine was scared and she touched Daniel's hand, but she touched someone else's hand and they both laughed...
They saw a fortune teller down the road and they asked for their future advice and the fortune teller said: "My darlings, Please don't waste the time of your life... spend the rest of your time together happily" Then tears flow out from the teller's eyes
Jasmine invited Daniel to go to the hill and they saw a meteor...Jasmine mumbled something
while they sat on the bus the bumby road caused Jasmine to give Daniel a kiss by accident
Jasmine and Daniel sat in the park where they first decided to play this game...
Daniel: I'm tired Jasmine...Do you want something to drink? I'll buy you one.. I'll just go down the road
Jasmine: Apple Juice that's all
Daniel: Wait here for me....
20mins later... a stranger approached Jasmine
Stranger: Are you a friend of Daniel?
Jasmine: Why yes? What happened?
Stranger: A reckless drunken driver ran over Daniel and he is critical in the hospital
The doctor came out of the emergency room and he handed an apple juice and a letter to Jasmine
Doctor: We found this in Daniel's pocket
Jasmine read the letter:
Jasmine, This past few days, i realized you are a really cute girl and i am really falling for you..Your cherished.... you were everything when we played this game..... Before this game would end...I would like you to be my girlfriend for the rest of my life.... I love you Jasmine....
Jasmine crumples the paper and shouted:
"Daniel ! I don't want you to die... I love you...Remember that night when we saw the meteor, I mumbled something... I mumbled that I wish we would be together forever and never end this game. Please don't leave me Daniel.... I love you! You cannot do this to me!"
Then the clock strikes 12
Daniel's heart stop pumping
IT WAS THE 30TH DAY........
Always love your loved ones and show them how you feel before it is too late... You will never know when they will be gone from your embrace... If you were given a time to bestow petals of everlasting compassion and love to your loved ones, today is the day.... Love them while they are still here...
Aug. 15th, 2005
12:18 am - recovering.....
today is the first day without my meds
i'll never be who i was......i'll forever be changed.
change is the only constant thing in life.......change is good.
Aug. 12th, 2005
01:52 am - Fuck him, fuck her, fuck the father, fuck the god damn world for that matter b/c I DON'T GIVE A SHIT
it's almost the weekend......what a day from hell......don't want to talk about it b/c my eyes are already swollen shut from my already fallen tears.....
still the pain doesn't stop......the hurting doesn't stop........
i wish i could just disappear
my heart has yet to decide.....he said to call him later, but i almost don't want to......but then again i need closure for my heart to be okay with this bull shit......and really that's all it's been is bullshit
Jul. 14th, 2005
01:40 pm - ...sadness....
this is one from Jack Johnson, and it's exactly how I feel at the moment....
When your mind is a mess so is mine I can't sleep
because it hurts when i thingk when my thoughts aren't at peace
with the plans that we make and the chances we take
they're not yours they're not mine
there are waves that can break
all the words that we said and the words that we mean
and the words can fall short, can't see the unseen
becuase the world is awake so for sombody's sake
now please close your eyes
woman, please get some sleep
too mush silence can be misleading
you're drifting i can hear it in the way that you're breathing
we don't really need to find reson
because out the same door that it came well it's leaving
leaving like a day that's done and part of a season
resolve is just a concept that's as dead as the leaves
but at least we could sleep, it's all that we need
when we wake we would find, out minds would be free
Jun. 22nd, 2005
12:17 am - ...
yummy ..... split pea soup......(the first thing i've been able to hold down)
i'm not ok.
Jun. 21st, 2005
12:52 am - ??
i have no idea what to think right now........ i get worried. my nerves are at the end.......what should i do?.......go about life............or not..............life sucks, then you die. i want to know what it's like when you're dead........is there an after life, or do you repeat the same one that you lived before...........well HE be there waiting for me........why won't HE call.........
i havn't sleept since friday when everything happened........why did i make a rash decision?
why won't HE call...........
i havn't eaten in 2 days.............why won't HE call.........
i don't even know how to describe the way i feel. i feel like life was ripped from my entire being
emotions are building up............why won't HE call............
why can't i be a part of HIS life....what is HE keeping me from?.......why does HE have to hurt me so much to where i can't even see out of my eyes anymore.......... my tears are falling so fast and i can't stop them.......HE knows i can't sleep without HIM..........what is wrong with me?
i hope HIS waiting for me.........
Jun. 10th, 2005
01:24 am - it's a great day for Chris....
...but not for me......
started off great......ended terrible......
and i'll just leave you with this.........
"If you look inside a girl's heart you'd see how much she really cries, you'll find secrets hidden, best friends, and lies. But what you'll see the most, is how hard it is to stay strong when nothing in her life's right and everything is wrong"
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